middle of week 2

So I'm not going to lie, I thought this whole teaching experience would get easier as time passed by but its actually quite the opposite. It's WEdnesday, middle of week 2 and today I experienced my most challenging day yet. Once I got to MATtay i fell in love with the place and the kids instantly. There's not one word to describe them our how I'm feeling but all I know is that I'm at peace here. I have no sense of time here and when I THink back about all the little things the kids did to make me smile each day, I cant wait to return back to school to see them again the following day. But then there are days like today where the challenges come and I dont know what to do. My first two classes are junior high and high school and I Am happy to say that they make it really easy to teach and communicate with. maybe its because they are so eager to learn. But then there's my last class of the day, the little ones. Boy are they a handful. THEY ARE SO CUTE but it gets really hard to control them and it ends up feeling like i'M BABY SITTING AND NOT TEACHING.

But I think God is trying to tell me something...a few days ago I came across a passage from the bible about the story of Martha and Mary. I feel like I'm trying so hard to be a MArtha with all the serving and God just wants me to stop for a second, sit at His feet and be like MARy. I THink hE's trying to tell me that when i Feell frustrated and hopeless in days like these, I need to stop relying on myself and my strengths and just trust that He will handle everything for me, even if its a rowdy bunch of uncontrollable screaming,crying kids. I pray that my trust can grow and I can be more of a mary in this martha world.

joyce, Mattay